Can I be a Volunteer again?

Anxiety, excitement and mixed emotions caught me right then and there when I met the next batch of volunteers for Cabiao.

I want to tell loads of stories about our experiences, our moans, hardships, down days, the awesome socials we had, our endless exploration of the this small town. But after my endless stories, I stopped and reckon, I should not deprived them of the learning’s that this small town gave me, my counterpart and the rest of the team had.

It was not as easy as one two and three to go back, face the past, and moved on. But what I’ve got from this weekend getaway? It was the realization of the ff:

  • There will be strange feelings that will just pop out of the box- there was this feeling of deja vu, from the matching up to traveling from Phil rice to Cabiao. I still remembered how anxious and nervous I was when the counterparts was revealed.
  • Things will never be the same again.- this is true, when I went back to my host home, I felt as if I am a guest in their house. Yet, when I talked to my host ‘brother’ not ‘father’, he told me that I am still welcome in the house.
  • It is overwhelming to see the new batch of volunteers who will continue what we have established. Some as I had an opportunity to talk with and shared some stories has feelings of anxiousness and if not worry about the standard we established. Well to be honest as well, I told them to just be ‘yourself’; at the end of the day, expectations just come and go, but who will enjoy this journey? Is for them or for you to cherish?
  • Cabiao has been my second home- I never felt that kind of feeling of being secured even if I am not in my own “home”. Perhaps, this small town gave me the sense of belongingness of being a “tourist” yet being a local at the same time.
  • I had a great volunteer experience with great supervisors- I never thought that my “out of the box” attitude that I had would be made possible because I have a supervisor who is not selfish to tame if not put me in a box of doctrines. He even encouraged me and my counterpart to do things that we want to do, but of course within the limits of being “responsible for your own actions”. I could not think of a single word to describe my supervisor who kept on telling me to learn via experience, since “you know the rules, you can now modify it”.
  • Half-hearted- I don’t know if I really wanted to pursue MBA or MCD, which way it would be, I’m not yet ( I think) ready to pursue any masteral degree for this year, but definitely I will take one.
  • Security over happiness and vice versa- when I was in the small town of Cabiao, it gave me the sense of being secured and happy both at the same time. So why is it, I am living near the metro where the life line of the businesses sets in and go would made me feel inferior?

There are loads of questions and uncertain answers, with uneasy feeling of how will I bang it on. But here I am typing in this keyboard over the papers and numbers of the work for tomorrow. All I will think of is how Cabiao made me a better person.

Need to Breathe

3 hours of sleep did not stop me from doing this trip. I arrived home around 10 pm, due to traffic, and I need to do some bailing out agreements so that I can take this weekend getaway.

Most people who work in the metro would take advantage of holidays, long weekends to get out of their routine and travel. Since, I started to work again in the metro where the lowest temperature of the aircon will give you, plus the traffic, beaming lights inviting you to groove with the hip music.

It was not actually a pure weekend getaway, but I opt for an escape of urbanity via volunteer work.

So far, in day 1 of this ‘spontaneous’ trip things and situations before rekindled:

  •  I now fully understand why my hhc wants to go out most of the time. It is soooo cold in an office that all you want to do is sleep or grab a cup of coffee. While, if you’re on the road, you see loads of things (e.g. The fields, birds, Carabao, farmer tilting the land and etc.) will make you feel good.
  •  Going on a trip stimulates your creativity and imagination. – just look at the clouds, how are they formed? Use your imagination to kill the boredom! 🙂
  • There are ups and downside of traveling in daytime.
  • Happy yet unsecured or unsecured yet happy? – would it be mean being happy as you are would make you a selfish person?
  • Sunrise really gives you good vibes. This is really true, I spent the whole week in the metro and living with it made me feel sick and weak, I can no longer see the sunrise since I need to get on and off the bus before it rise or else I need to endure a hunger games like traffic.

Will I hit the road next time? Probably yes, it gave me a sense of direction and re-aligned my perspectives about life which I think no amount of money and even an nth number of books could give.

Mt. Manabu

1st Month of the Year, 2 Summits, 3 Different Outdoor Activities and 4 out of the box experiences.

A university fellow and I started doing this (mountain climbing) since last year (2014) marking our journey away from the norms set forth by our challenging, dynamic and heterogeneous society. This is a series of entries about our lives, our journey outside our usual routine; however, as much as possible, we wanted to capture every single detail of our journey in a particular place. Hence, this entry about eat, swim and climb came into existence.

It was early morning of the 2nd day of the 1st month of the year and we started working our way to Batangas with my university friend. It heavily rained the day before our ultimate backpacking experience started.

Climb for a Cup of Coffee

Mt. Manabu is known for having free civet coffee for the mountaineers who would try to conquer it. As both of us were on our hype of trying out new things, we opt to take the challenge aside from the pile of mud that would stick on your shoes. Since I am a certified coffeeholic, I did not deprived myself to descent without trying one of the most expensive coffee in the world- the Civet. Once you reached station 5, you’ll going to see a humble hut that is open to all mountaineers, and you’ll meet tatay Tino who takes care of few alamids (civet) and will offer you an unlimited access to this amazing coffee.

Since it rained the day before we climbed this mountain, expect to have an unfavorable fog along the way aside from the trade winds that comes with the yuletide season. A cup of alamid coffee was the perfect thing to do once you reached the half of the hike, unless otherwise, you want to spoil the entire climbing journey.

Enjoying our first cup of Civet Coffee.

Enjoying our first cup of Civet Coffee.

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Climbing is not about the Summits Conquered

Climbing buddy and I always takes time to climb a certain mountain. We don’t want to climb for the sake of climbing, but it is more of a personal thing. “it is not the mountain that you conquer but your fears” as what have been mentioned in station 2 of this hike. We were supposedly opt to descend on the 7th and 8th station, yet, since it was really foggy at that time, we opt to take the same path we had earlier and we don’t want to compromise our lives just for the sake of having an entry and pictures about this.

Unlimited Fresh Water

On our way descending, we decided to clean our shoes (muddy), in the running stream. It was like a melted ice water freely flowing to the bottom of the mountain. While trying to remove the mud that stocked on our shoes, we’ve seen how people were not able to maintain the “naive” feature of nature. We kept on practicing the outdoor ethics, yet there are still groups of people who don’t care about sustainability and development which made me think, it is just a facade to climb for personal reasons or it is just an implication of a more complex role?

The Summit

The Summit.

Year Ender

Couple of hours to go and we will finally bid our さようなら(goodbye)to 2014 and say 今日は (konnichiwa /hello) to 2015.

This is a bit tedious and I will appeal for your patience: (wink). This year has been good to me, I’ve learned a lot, by all means about life, career, realities, being open minded and etc so let’s start the countdown!

  • Not meant to be a Lawyer- the realities of being a lawyer made me think- I love the profession, yet I think I am not that prepared to become one. I could still remember why I wanted to be a part of a firm – I want to become a full-pledge Lawyer and help migrants around the world (too idealistic isn’t?), but lessons about the legal profession were endless, they taught me a lot about the realities, the trips, the value of hard work, and professionalism.
  • Mountain Climbing is always a test of character- Before, I thought my health status would restrict me for doing things that is beyond the usual- but I was wrong. Together with a very outgoing university friend, we just did what we wanted- climb mountains and it did really test our character, we were tired of the routine – hike a mountain, stressed out, go backpacking!
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Last Mountain to Conquer for 2014-Mt. Arayat

  • I Volunteered!- it was not a fancy thing for the fam and the rest of the people around me, but I just wanted to search for myself, no expectations, come what may and I’ll gonna bang it on, rather than having thoughts of what if’s and regrets. I had to bargain on some issues before I finally got their “yes”!
  • Development world is not all about money- I thought once you explore the other side of the globe (I mean career in dev. World) it will be about grants, donations and community works. I could say that yes, there are loads of community works, grants and donations but it is the effort of one that makes a difference. I am not a good conversationalist, a skilled, a technical expert in DRRM, but what I have done together with other volunteers made an impact(N.B: not yet done with the translation though 🙂 ), it is once in a lifetime experience to see things in different perspective.
  • Failure is Essential- like anything in this world, no one wants to fail, but being afraid of failing makes an individual more vulnerable (think so J ). No one will judge you for failing and committing mistakes, it is you who will judge yourself (so don’t be too hard to yourself). J
  • Don’t use your head too much- it gives you pain all the time! Sometimes, learn to decide based on what you feel (don’t over rationalize things), and it will make you feel more free and positive!
  • Seek Answers- I just read some chapters of “Sophie’s World” by Gaardner, and it made me realize that “all I know is, I know nothing”. Let us admit, even we had nth number of degrees from respective universities around the globe, we can’t learn all the lessons in one degree, it takes a reality shot.
  • be Adventurous (A.K.A : Out-of the- Box)- this is what I loved most! Grab your backpack and hit the road to nowhere and face that unusual feeling that you have! 🙂
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  • Never stop to share stories- I also love this one, never get tired of talking to random people about random things in life.
  • Culture is very dynamic- yes I realized that there are people who are really unconventional and conventional, and I respect them for being who they are.
  • Make a BUCKET LIST- it fascinates me when I opened my planner and saw that almost 80% of what I’ve written on my “bucket list” came into reality. It can be a small thing don’t make it as complicated as explaining how insects multiply, just as simple as hike a mountain, or go to someplace alone for the first time, trust me, it’ll be unforgettable facing your “first time” jitters.. 🙂
  • Never burn bridges, highways or even a staircase- this is really true, you’ll never know who will to call in the middle of the night when you are starving, badly ill, or even need a shoulder to cry on. 1555468_10200525452897317_952020067_n
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This is quite a tedious list (I know), and there’s more to add to this list yet, I reckon and stop here, as if I am waiting for the next bus trip. 🙂

3 Years over 3 Cups of Coffee

It has been 3 years of not seeing each other and I thought there would be strange feeling of being left behind from their routine and the topics being discussed; yet, I find myself in total awe- not because of being left behind, but because I found myself in total open discussion.

The Chatty and the ice breaker

When I was in university, I could count in my fingers the persons that I could share personal stories with. These group of people thought before that I was a bit conservative in my perceptions about life, career and etc; but it was not. Perhaps, I was not that open before about discussions about career and reality, what I’ve got was the utopia- like the republic of Plato.

After series of experiences that I had (in my work and exploring the other side of the coin), I just realized that life is not about the “big picture, but of the small details that makes it”. I was having this kind of discussion with a very chatty friend of mine as well, – by all means, chatty as I am; yet, as idealistic as I am(before). There was no dull moment, random things about life has been talked about, no more no less which I enjoyed the most – aside from the sumptuous meal that we shared.

Reality v. Utopia

Having the chat with these ladies (no longer little girls who roam around the university campus discussing about why the oil prices gone down, what’s next after Arab Spring, or practice speaking in Japanese); but more of having a chat about life, about careers, my volunteer experience (I am proud to share my volunteer experience with them) my work, their work, our moans, angst about life, our love lives, our goals, trips and a lot more.

We are no longer living on the ideal hype- I should be in this industry, or I should be working if not being engage or traveling, or just enjoying the NOW if not still searching for answers.

Keep the Reel Rolling!

There are still bits of something that pulls everyone back- and it differs, I don’t know the reason why, but I think it is more of the “norm” rather than the personal perception of how you live this life over 3 cups of coffee:

  •  Who cares if someone is working and the others are not? – no one really cares and no one does.
  • Step out of your own comfort zone- for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction (why bother dealing with the latter if you can enjoy the former?)

It is strange- and it will be for the next few days, weeks, months and even years, but what matters? It is not about the perception of the people around you; it is more of how you see things in different perspective – like a kaleidoscope.

Coffee Date at Bag of Beans

Coffee date at Bag of Beans

Week After

After almost 7 days of not seeing each other, all I could think of is how to move on.

It was a challenging, emotional and again-out of the box week not only for me but I think for all the volunteers.

Debrief Please!

We were given a week to say proper goodbye to our counterparts, to the team, supervisors and the programme; but what have we done during debrief was an extension of what we’ve done for the past few weeks.

Basically, we, the ICV’s, allowed ourselves to indulge on proper drinks! (note: it was on debrief) every night. It was not a way of saying goodbye + the heartache, but, perhaps, it was our way of saying-cheers for the friendship, for the good and bad times, for the crazy things we did, for the trust, encouragement, for the moans, the goals, foods that we shared and most of all -for the relationships that formed if not built that would last a lifetime.

The first 3 days on our debrief was an intense, hard core days of my life (sorry for exaggeration) due to mixed emotions, stress, pressure, unmet expectations and other external factors.. Perhaps, I was moody at that time because, I can’t reconcile in my mind that the wonderful journey this programme provided me would come to an end.

‘every chapter of a book must end, so you can enjoy if not write a better chapter’. These were the words that my counterpart-Katie told me(not in verbatim though) when I cried in our room before we leave for our debrief. I cried every morning the week before debrief, as if I am a little girl being left behind by her mom, no one wants to take care of. I cried not because I am weak but perhaps, it was an indication of preparing myself for a better journey.

When we hit the last night in Pangasinan, my HHC and I had proper talk (it was remarkable) since we arrived at the venue, we haven’t talked that much.

I worry of not seeing her again, not to hear her disney like voice, go for a hike with her, no one to chat with when I’m down, no one to be with when I blog, sharing sachets of cafe blanca (our bestseller coffee) in morning and after dinner, sharing fruits as snack, having bottle/s of beer when pissed off with someone, share meals and bed time stories, (personal and professional ones), and most if not all- pushing me to do out of the box things in life.

After few days of crying and contemplating while staring at the windowsill, I realized that:

A. I am no longer the same Sofie – you read it right! The first 3 days when I got home, almost all of the members of the fam were surprised the way how I speak, the way I act, the way I hate watching tv shows and how I love to do out of the box things!

B. I got matured (mentally and emotionally speaking)- I find myself taking more risks and responsibilities as an individual, yet, members of the fam, still considers me like a little girl wandering the globe for the ‘big shot’.

C.I don’t care what my society tells- practically, it will give me a headache if I will try to conform to the norm of my ever heterogeneous+complex society. It is as if I am trying to please nth number of people in this country, which in reality, I can’t -even the President can’t do it, so how can I?

D.English communication skill is all about practice- I think this one really marked my entire 3 months! My English communication skill has been put into test. I talked to my counterparts in English and Filipino to the members of the community and the host-homes. The first time that I talked to my counterpart, I was ashamed if not shy to initiate a nice conversation, I easily got intimidated of her “British English” accent, yet, at the end of the day, it is me who is willing to take challenges and even speak more rather than contemplating if my grammar is correct or not. Sometimes, it is far better not to think of the rules (in grammar), since it gives you the liberty to express what you really want to say.

E. Active lifestyle is not about being vain- basically, since I was in Cabiao and doing field works, most if not all the time, I walked to my work; it gave me the sense of being “fit” by not conforming to the “gym” standard of the society. I no longer enjoy the comforts of staying at home for the rest of the day. I see to it that before the day ends, I would walk at least 500m if not a kilometer or as long as I can walk.

F. Missing someone is not a life or death thing- I really cried a lot, I even asked a good friend how to “detach” from someone and even ‘debrief” myself. All she said was, grab all the comfort foods that you have, have more sleep, have someone to talk to- and it all paid; in a sense that in a matter of 3 days I was able to recover from my ‘separation anxiety’. I guess, it helped me a lot when I cry and tell straight to the person that I’ll surely gonna miss him/her/them, and speak what is on my mind. It may look and sound funny at first, yet, I think that is the best form of coping up and moving on.

It was hard to say goodbye, yet, goodbye does not really mean an end, it is just a start of a new beginning, it is up to you how will you work on your available resources.

Pre-Birthday

We asked our Lola Emma if we could invite some of our closest friends in the team to have a nice dinner and few drinks to share with the group and she replied in affirmative.

We were having this plan of going to mall and grab a venti starbucks cafe americano while doing an actual work of proof reading and translation; we ended up by having a nice ride with Paulina (a very good friend of ours and the team), at SM Pampanga with her sister.

Spending? No worries!

HH and I has this detachment from money. We don’t really make a big fuss out of our finances, how much we spent and how much money we left on our purses.

Since it was a day before my birthday, I treated HHC-katie for a nice frappuccino and I had my blueberry cheesecake and venti cafe americano-an absolute birthday treat! 🙂

Stressorsssssss..

I found it funny and silly when HHC was stressed out of the internet/wifi connection that we had (thanks pau for the laptop and wifi 🙂 ) and rushed on the things that the ‘managers’ kept on asking for us. She was a bit (I think far from the word ‘bit’)upset when I am turning again from my indecisiveness and uncertain attitude that triggered the bigger stressor.

 ‘it is no longer funny, you can’t decide on anything, wasting everyone’s time‘.

Yeah, I admit, I was a bit stressed out as well with her, with the team, with my family, with my friends, the work, the future, my birthday, and etc. But what made me stay and decide? The assertiveness of my counterpart to make a decision at that time- no more no less.

She was supposedly planned to buy me a cake as birthday present, yet, I reckon the idea and suggested to sneaked in to other stores. We opt for pizza than having a nice cake, and she bought something to share- a delightful garden salad!

Time to go home and dig in for pizza and drinks!

Upon reaching our humble abode, there were no ‘guests’ yet (I did that intentionally simply to lessen the damage from the ‘dragon lady’), and I talked to our lola Emma if we could have our party at the veranda rather than the dining area (she insisted on the dining area yet, we kept our grounds on the veranda so that she could rest well as she had been rushed to the hospital the night before) in the end lola Emma replied again in affirmation.

Party like no other

We spent the night having a nice food, company and drinks, yep! We had 3 bottles of wines, beers and nice chats from the people that I considered as ‘close’ friends. Since it was my birthday, I had the privileged not to accept any negative vibes at that moment, yet, there was the ‘dragon lady’ roaming around waiting for the next victim. I find her really rude as well for slamming the door at our guests, for criticizing/judging us for who we are and for being assertive with our decisions.

I wanna end this entry not in a hanging bad vibes. Basically my long time buddy-Reeda told me about ‘change’ and the world I am living now. I can’t expect them (the fam, my counterpart) to be what I want them to be. For instance, if I gave 100% of the pie, I should not expect that the other way around would be exerting the same effort as well. Put some barrier of professionalism in terms of this volunteer experience(that’s why I think I kept on contemplating the idea for the next couple of days…..) it would be tough because you made it more personal but it could be a learning experience as well-perhaps the hard way if not the other way around.

PS: I was surprised when the 3 Brits gave me their present (a starbucks tumbler), I am not into the brand(having a starbucks tumbler) but, it was more of the thought that they consider how coffeeholic I am and I could not imagine how come my HHC was able to buy it without (me) noticing it.. 😀

A Chat like a Gunshot

It was week 10, and nearly down to week 11 when I got this opportunity to have a nice chat with a volunteer placement staff.

Well, out of the blue, while siting in our veranda waiting for my free data to logged-in, kuya Tom had this nice question for me. ‘what will you do after the program?’, what do you get from being a volunteer?

I replied in enthusiastic way and kicked it off! Well, basically, I want to search for myself in this program which I assure myself that I was able to do so. Also, I want to have that ‘kind’ of experience that I want before I enter another field (e.g. Corporate v. Development world?). If I fail to find a nice job, I’m opt to take my board exam which would entail a year and hopefully to pass it before I reached the maximum age for the position.

All it takes is that ‘bang it on’ attitude and out-of-the-box!

Basically, he kept on saying that job hunting in the country (and even my host dad agreed on me about it) is as tough as going to gladiator war 🙂 . Who would have thought that after you’ve finished you’re degree say IR, you’ll gonna get your dream job.

If you really want something, be assertive that you can have it, rather than staring at it from afar.

There is this nice opp which is up for grab, either I’ll take it or leave it, it is entirely up to me.

The same thing goes when HHC keeps on telling me instead of staring why not face it? If you fail, at least you’ve tried. You will never now that you can do it unless you try.

Perhaps, until now, I’m still struggling to face my fears. Yes, it is really a roller coaster ride feeling once you face your fears, or face the world of I wish I did this and that when I had the chance to do so.

Exit Plan

In search of tranquility and silence, I found peace and serenity on our favorite coffee shop in town while having a nice cup of coffee and writing this blog entry.

I really don’t know why I am having this feeling. So strange, I really don’t know what is happening to me. I’m scared, I worry, I am excited and I am happy, rolled into one.

The exit plan

To welcome week 10, two weeks from now, we will go back home, to the lives we left before the program, before this roller coaster ride.

I could still remember what our supervisors told us during our in-community orientation. He told us, that the first 2-3 weeks will be a community integration, and the last 2-3 weeks will be formulation of our own ‘exit plan’.

Am I ready to make my own exit plan?

Seeing the word ‘exit plan’ made me realize:

  • I built relationships that will lasts and some are just the surface level, which is a fact of life (like you can’t please everyone).
  • Inspiring someone is like having a nice trip to nowhere-scary at first, yet, once you ‘bang it on’ all you can feel is a sense of fulfillment and satisfaction.
  • Drawing back to past does not mean dwelling on it- I tried to review my ‘Japanese listening exam’, and got a bit stressed out(worry to be specific) about my upcoming examination; seeing how I built relationships with my Nihonjin friends and how it fades made me think, will it be the same thing for my counterpart?(hope it will not).
  • A nice chat with someone you’ve just met is as fantastic as exploring the other side of the world- I thought, having a surface level conversation is enough to formulate your own ‘stigma/brand’ to someone. Sometimes, it takes weeks or even months of conversation to end up with a nice person.
  • Being alone does not mean you’re lonely or anti-social- I love doing things with someone(a friend, a random stranger or even a driver or a vendor) in a random place at a random time. But, today, I spent most of the time having my own ‘me time’ without my counterpart, without anyone from the group of friends that I was able to build during the program, and I enjoyed it! I felt, again – a stranger looking for an oasis in a desert. Yet, similar peolple who will come across, will recognise you not as with counterpart but as individual-which I loved most!
  • It is okay to be immature- I love the way I am exploring this journey called life- I acted as immature (most of the time) and my counterpart can attest to that, the same way that I acted mature in several ways as well. Before, I thought, once, you received this thin paper called ‘diploma’ you’ll become mature, yet, when I entered the ‘professional world’ I find myself in a total lost. When I got my first work, I thought I am good enough to take a bigger responsibility/ am I overqualified(that’s why I resigned), yet, when I went to the business district, I find myself too little for big boss’s to spare their time to engage a nice chat with me. Now I was given the luxury to talk, to chat with the community, yet, I found myself taking aback from this good opportunity! Why? Perhaps I’m still scared to try- so what if I fail? Failure is part of life. So easy to be said yet, so hard to live it up.

It may not sound as a perfect plan (there’s really no structure in it). To be honest, I don’t want to leave the community yet, I love the community, how they accommodate us, how friendly the people are, yet, there are times that ‘missing home’ and missing my comfort zone strikes me. Perhaps this is just one of those days.

I thought, I won’t feel this kind of ‘missing home’ thing; I’m in my own country, living my life as if out-of the box, yet, there are things that will remind you that your past/background is not your benchmark to move on. It is just a pretty much reminder of how you progressed in this journey called -life.

Tour de Manile (Part 2)

Have a break, grab a drink!

To be honest, I am not feeling well when I woke up this morning and had breakfast with my counterpart (both of us woke up by 8am?) and a family member joined us, even asking me how to get to my hometown, what will be the bus routes and etc. Since I was with counterpart, I told her about the plan of this fam member to go to my hometown; and guess what? We had this idea of ditching the team meeting and the preparations for the fun run, because we were branded already as the lazy and lame host home counterparts.

We’re not lame, we’re just chillin

I think (and HHC thinks) working in the community is like having a nice drink in a nice and fancy bar- all you have to do is ‘bang on it’ rather than staring at it as if it is a dream that needs to be come true. We are not in Cabiao, to change it in a snap! We are in Cabiao to help them to be resilient and prepared in terms of ‘disasters’ not really acting as experts in DRRM but rather to bring positive impact to get the ‘youth’ to partake in this ‘hype’ on development world.

Moving forward(not backward nor sideways 🙂 ) since we were buzzing on going to someplace where we can find tranquility, silence, peace, away from the group nor the team (not from people of Cabiao) but from the ‘managers’, we went out of Cabiao as if we were doing a backpacking thing.

Go now, plan later

We always have this idea/s of doing things spontaneously(who really cares if we planned it or not?) like an ‘out-of-the-box’ attitude whenever we want to do things which would not include the team or even a larger group of friends. I think it worked this way for us because no one is dominating someone on doing something, just like having a nice rice bowl over soy sauce. 🙂

The Spontaneous itinerary

Basically we had this idea of going to my hometown-Cavite which was roughly a four or more hour of travel. While nearing to the bus terminal in Manila, we just decided to have a nice cup of coffee with my dad roam around the metro, take train rides, bus, or even jeepney rides and stroll around-like a child in search for a nice candy shop.

We decided as well to buy our costumes for the fun run around the shops within the business district. Looking for a nice costume really stresses me out! Why do I need to participate in such event? I really don’t know- a tick of ‘out of the box’ perhaps? Counterpart saw how uninterested I was looking for a nice ‘costume’ yet she stayed her adrenaline/ bang it on attitude and we ended up with a nice one!

Indecisive before, yet till now

Yeah, I know for a fact how indecisive I am before the program and I think there are times that I just want to go with the flow? Yet, I am paired with a person who loves to push someone to do out of the box things even making an indecisive person to become a decisive one. We were at a nice Japanese restaurant (longing for a bowl of ramen), when she asked me if the price is a good one or a crappy one. I gave her the idea that another Japanese store is comparatively cheaper with unlimited rice! So we looked for it, after our ‘costume hunt’.

Since we were that flexible, we had salad, a bowl of noodles, a beer for our dinner in a nice korean restaurant.

Sounds fun? Yeah definitely

After our nice and balanced/healthy dinner we went to a nice bar at Greenbelt 3(I think? 🙂 ), she treated me for a drink and talked about random things (again as if asking how insects multiply? 🙂 ). I told her a couple of times that definitely I gonna miss her presence whenever  I go for a drink nor passing by the district. I will remember how silly we were roaming outside Cabiao, and doing things as if we are not part of the program- but as 2 individuals with pretty much the same attitude/personalities yet came from different side of the globe.

Rush hour in Manila

As much as possible we wanted this trip to be as discreet from all the members of the team. We found ourselves a tranquility out of urbanity, yet, we felt that it was unfair to let the team do its work. Honestly speaking as well, we were contemplating how we were able to ‘contribute’ to the team, and how well we are in handling our issues (in terms of ‘team work’ and beating the red light). Basically, we worried too much if we would be able to catch the last bus trip going to Cabiao. Every station counts, and every station nearing down to our station is like having a sip of every ‘drink’ that makes your mind at ease.

It was an awesome/perfect day for the two of us. Yes, we found ourselves in the middle of the metro, like exploring things in new perspectives yet, we don’t get used to the presence of each other. We kept on learning, we kept on acting like a child, a student, a teacher even a nurse (for quite sometimes 🙂 ), I think that is one of the fascinating things about life, you don’t have to live up the stigma nor the stereotype that every single individual would put on your name, it is more about how you appreciate the simple things, the simplicity of this world and not on the complexities that we always put in it.