Micro-Macro Where Am I suppose to go?

Which one do you prefer? A leader or a boss??

When I enter the workforce, I thought there is a very thin line between a boss and a leader. A boss and a leader for me is the one who gives instructions, taking charge of tasks delegations and gives appropriate recognitions with their staff.

8 months had passed and I have been too judgmental with how my supposedly utopian leaders must act, balance if not assess the gap between the millenials and baby boomers, with idealistic v realist and how to engage all members of the organization towards performance excellence.

I admit, and guilty beyond reasonable doubt that I judge people whom I thought were mediocre, complacent and sitting idle in the meadows. They might roam around, sit idle do more of thr talking but that is their way of ensuring that the nitty gritty and the small details are well accounted for.

Away for 5 Days

A 5 days under official business, made me think, I am with a bunch of idealist, realist, a micro and macro manager whom made me realized that micro and macro management (either way) is not bad at all.

Striking the balance between the two is the key to harmonized and engaged workforce.

Recharged Peens

It has been 7 months since our placement has ended in Cabiao, Nueva Ecija. 7 months of rekindling our experiences, our counterparts, our host homes and what keep us busy at the moment.

#Clingypeens

So strange, that I took the courage to ask for my boss if it would be possible to take an half day break, and he affirmed. With high conviction and determination, I rushed to meet those  who have been my sister, brother, a friend, a special friend, a close friend and for sometime a foe, for the past 3 months of placement. As if social media does not suffice ourselves with the usual hello how are you, I found myself being energized again. It is so strange that for the past few weeks I have been down and yet just seeing these guys physically and having a nice chat made me feel as if our placement just ended yesterday. I am sure it is not only me who feel that kind of ‘kick’, I am certain my lil bro’s, sistah’s and even our PS’s, felt the same way.

Out of the box Peens

I haven’t use that phrase “out of the box” for quite sometimes. But with these guys, it was as if in a snap I could think a lot ‘out of the box’ ideas, spur of the moment thing and voila!

Celebrating an advance birthday party with a co-volunteer with a bang of cake, pizza, chicken and of course drinks, was a de ja vu.

I certain believe that there were no accidents in life. Perhaps one of the reason that I love my work at the moment is because I am being inspired by my external clients, In development world- the community. People will not judge you if you wear a shirt, a jeans and a backpack. People tends to give you positive vibes aside from the sunlight.  A simple chat could create a beyond the surface level of friendship, of trust and certainly a friend to call in time of need.

Inclusivity is the key

Our placement was simultaneously being conducted in other parts of the country. Cabiao for disaster risk reduction management, Cebu for deaf community and Bohol for environmental sustainability. Seeing volunteers from Cebu-deaf community, I found myself as blessed and at the same time challenged. These deaf volunteers wants to make a change in their own way, while I, on the other side, keeps on questioning things if not moaning.

One of the speakers said, ‘if you are having a lot of negatrons consider volunteering, it will give you tons of electrons to be on the beat.

Calibrating Tea Break

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It was a nice Saturday chillin out in my parent’s humble abode while enjoying a nice cup of tea and a nice pastry to complement my afternoon break.

For the past few days of settling down at the metro, with rush and pressure that has been your foe, I felt fed up and wanted to go home. I felt abused, underpaid, unproductive and incompetent if not having the confidence.

Everyone needs a break- so do I

My minde demanded to shut it off, since it was a long holiday, I assumed that I will be reading my favorite books if not just being laid back in my room.  I think, being laid back once in a while is good, to re-aling your perspectives, as of you’re in a bus and saw a nice scenery outside and decided you  want to see it for more hours.

Working with the demands of our reapective  jobs is a must. But be sure to enjoy what you’re doing, otherwisr, you’re making a big fool out of yourself.

An Airport Affair

There’s this strange feeling while at the airport lounge sittin and waiting for a friend. I felt i secure and challenged at the same time. i felt insecure for those who will be leaving this place via jetplane; with the following realizations if not questions in mind:

a. airport has been a good friend to me- I always feel I am a child waiting for my chocolate bar just like waiting for a friend to come out of the arrival area.

b. airports has been a foe and makes me cry- for the past few years of existence there was once that I was able to leave the airport grounds without turning back, the rest of my affair with airports has been so cruel that it made me feel a loser at sometimes.

c. airports challenges my intuition- i always dream of having my suitcase on, in one hand, and having my favorite cup of coffee on the other while passing through the VIP/Diplomatic entrance… 🙂

d. airports has been too good to be your motivator- Why do people need to leave the country to work and earn a living? Why not strive in your own country and make a living out of it?

Perhaps airports will always a friend and a foe foe me, it gives me reasons  push myself to go out of the bigger box.

Escaping Demands from Metro

I had a not so good week. Demand from work and personal stuff piles up and I am about to give up. 

I missed the simple  life away from the buzzin of the metropolis. For the past few weeks I’ve been sooo eager to move out of my routine and hit the road to nowhere.

Right Time Right Route

As  I went home from my work I told my mom how tired I was from the demands of my routine, she told me we’ll hit the road to somewhere – I agreed

With such enthusiasm, we visit one of our relatives whom I could  consider as awesome.

1. I dont need to grab my backpack just to have a nice buko juice- it has been my water replacement since I went to there place.

2. Kids will always be kids- I love seeing kids roaming and I even asked them if they know sesame street and looney toones and even watched tom and jerry and played ‘bubbles’.

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3. Who could say no Fruits? – I mentioned that I had a nice water replacement and I had a nice meal with native chicken for lunch, jackfruit for snack what else could I think of? 🙂

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4. The awesome Weather that could beat the heat of summer- it was draining 30++ degrees of heat in the  metro that I want to say no in  going back.

5. The Family that eats together stays together- as the saying goes, having a nice  meal with the fam compliments the if not makes the time for everyone to be on the loop ー just like being updated with the current affairs of each member. Continue reading

Quarter Life Crisis- Oh No!

I’m on a quarter life crisis

Right after graduation from university, drafted and finalized all the documents and credentials that I have before leaving the comforts of my Alma matter, I did my best. I tried to winged all the subjects right back in university, cross cultural communications, International Relations, Economic and Political Geography- name it!

I scourged all the high-end companies in the metropolis aiming for the “ideal” job that I want. – Reality speaks for itself- you can’t have it all.

Fast track, here I am, while stereo on in my humble abode, reading the daily newspaper (which I’ve been longing to do) over a cup of coffee and an article caught my attention – entitled – Young and Bored.

I am young, enthusiastic, inquisitive and vibrant 20-something and not so fresh graduate. Worked with various companies, with not so high salary and beyond from what I have been dreaming of when I left the university.

I am working on my nth company, where it demands both of my creative and mental skills to produce something. I wear several hats- from policy drafting, review, communications, and even secretariat. I am challenge to do my job well- aiming for perfection like having a perfect blend of your cocktail while sitting relaxed on a hammock while reading your favorite novel on a perfect beach coast.

There’s really no “PERFECT or IDEAL”, it is always about:

  • Finding Balance- set and unmet expectations from the real world will tell you that you have to work on the tides not against it.
  • Levering the playing field- no matter what you do, people just can’t help themselves to give in their precious comments and judgments (weather it is positive or negative) “just don’t care” (like what John Legend song says).
  • No to perfect job – yes to lovin’ the present- I don’t understand why school teaches us the ideal yet it is like 360 degrees different from the reality? Why not teach expectation setting rather than “aiming to be perfect”? Is it because students are too good and easily to be trained to have the ideas in their mind and will tell the world- I’ll change the status quo?
  • I haven’t learn this when I was in school- reality will give you hard core and down till dawn life- lessons which has more retention than finishing a minimum 200 pages of your textbook. Savor it, nothing will be a waste if you will see each failures, rejections and No’s as part of honing you as a better person.
  • I’ll stick to the status quo- I highly encourage people to go out of their own box. Even, personally, I have my own issues on keeping myself out of the box. Seek more adventures, not because you have something to post on your IG nor fb, but for the sake of overcoming your inferiorities and fears. Challenge yourself to change the way you think. Read. Even your eyes are too tired to finish a chapter and listen to those who want to speak (listening is a good skill by the way). J

Perhaps, it will always be a learning journey (who says it is not about learning anyway?). Working is not solely because of money, but because of learning. You want to learn.

High on Chai

Idealism- what’s wrong with me?

I am an idealist.

I’ve been an idealist since I went to university and paid religious and respectful visits to the library- where all the information can be accessed – even Google will do.

I’ve been too inquisitive and idealistic of how do people, community and even take advantage. Who gets, what, when and how- as defined by Politics. Why will I go to work and tilt the land in order to survive or increase my networth? Is it about having the guts to stand beyond the usual or just part of the gameplan? – I don’t know.

There was this strange feeling of inefficiency, of unproductiveness beyond my own imagination and own set of standards. I felt, I’m not working for the common people but I am working for a diverse group of individuals with dynamic and vibrant personalities. I thought, I already conquered my anxiety, fear of failure and being perfectionist- I was wrong. Yes the world rotates on its axis on a daily basis, as piles of papers and workloads just come and go with the days to count and move on.

So down and afraid to fight the good fight, I grab a cup of chai tea with a colleague on the go and spent few hours discussing about cultures, realities and idealism.

The tea that makes me feel great after a sip and will surely take more of it.  🙂